Dumb

i feel so dumb,
because i actually believed what you said...
i don't know why,
i thought this was different,
i guess i thought wrong...
i'm always falling for the wrong ones...

i didn't look before i fell
and now I'm left with a shattered heart
from the fall into the deep
dark blue thoughts which are my mind,
my soul, and my heart.

you said i captivated you
and said you wanted something new
something you could hold on to
i fell deep, i fell hard
and the worst part
is you weren't there to catch me

you say you still do
but you're confused
i understand
but i'm so mad at myself

i know better than to get close to someone
because in the end they end up
leaving or breaking me in two
i'm so mad at my self
for believing in you
am i that dumb ?

i feel bad for saying this
but i can only get it out this way
but music says the words
we are afraid to say out loud...
<3
-Becca