Because It's You

I don’t know. Maybe it’s just me. But when I look at your picture, I have a hard time believing your not here. I feel like I could just pick up the phone and call you. I just have to wait a while at my computer and then your screen name will pop up and I know I’m in for a poetic conversation revolving around Billy Joel. It’s not possible for you to be dead. It’s a silly idea, really. Because I look at this picture of you at your Sweet 16, decked out like it’s 1986, and your smiling and laughing and getting ready to blow out the candles on your cake…. And I look at this picture, and I know you’re not dead. I know you’re not, because you can’t be. Because if you were, I’d have nothing left. You’re smiling and laughing and flaunting your Michael Jackson dance moves. You’re surrounded by your friends, happy as can be. You’re looking fabulous all the time.

Because you’re fabulous, and beautiful, and smart, and crazy. You’re one of the most amazing young women I’ve ever known, and I’m so glad that I’ve known you. You’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever laid my eyes on, and my life is forever changed because of you. Your heart is so big, and your eyes are so blue, and I could cry just looking at you. Because you mean that much to me. Because I love you so, so much.

It’s hard to concentrate when all I can think about is you. Your beautiful smile, your cute hair, your silky skin and your eyes… I’ve never seen eyes like yours before. The way they pierce into my soul, like they can see everything about me, my darkest secrets and the lies I tell. Your eyes see right through me, and yet you still stuck around. You still wanted to be with me, even though you knew who I was and what I’d done.

You’re the most wonderful person I’ve ever known, and I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. I want you more than anything. I want to feel the softness of your hair, smell the sweet aroma that you wear so highly, and taste your warm lips. Just once more. Even if it’s just one night.

It’s been one-hundred and fifty days since June 17th. But I’m not counting.

I love you more than I can describe. And I can’t move on, but I’m trying. I want to be happy, and I think I am for the most part. But I miss you, and I want you. Because you mean the world to me. Because the last time we spoke, I told you I loved you. And I never got to hear your response.
-Shayna

Shayna.

Coheed & Cambria is my life.
I'm a very loud person.
I love Transformers.
I'm the pickiest eater ever.
I like Harry Potter.
I'm anti-Twilight.
I love all types of music.
I love Rockstar energy drinks.
I don't like sunlight.
I'm not a good singer, but I love to do it anyway.
I like to write.
I'm very creative.
I'm smart, but I say stupid things quite often.
I can be really obnoxious sometimes.
I have a shifty mood.
I like ABC soap operas.
I have ADD. The hyperactivity is unrelated.
I don't drink or do drugs.
I love cartoons.
I like to help people.
I love Britney Spears.
It's really easy to make me laugh.
I love Disney.
The Lion King on Broadway = Best. Show. Ever.
I have five brothers and one sister.
I hate politics.
I'm good at dream analysis.
I love DC Comics. I hate Marvel.
I'm Jewish and Wiccan.
I believe in spirits and demons.
I love movies.
I'm a guilty shopper.
I'm empathetic, passionate and strong.
I cry when I want to cry, fight when I want to fight and scream when I want to scream.
I'm good at keeping secrets.

Mary Goddamn Parisi

What was the last thing you looked up on Google?
I don't remember on my laptop, but on my other computer last time i went on it said "dead juggalo baby" in the search bar and all i thought was....damn it Vincent.

List three things near you:
Chris, a small yellow hippopotamus, and a blanket with the Jimi Hendrix experience on it

Tell someone something you really want to say to them but don't say their name.
I miss you more than i miss Play-Doh barber shops. We need to have a play date soon.

Would you rather be a limo driver or taxi driver?
taxi! i'd get to wear a cool hat and talk with an accent to the passengers about their days and their lives and stuff

Would you say your eyes are your best feature?
probably, my doctor this morning was like "you have beautiful eyes!" and i was like scan my head woman

If you could only use one condiment on your food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
uhh indonesian baby blood

This Is Extremely Important

Just realized that Obama and Bob the Builder have the same catch phrase.

TODAY

TODAY IS A GREAT DAY!

My dad was cutting up some turkey for sandwiches. While cutting he sees some wild turkeys wandering in our backyard. Without missing a beat he starts yelling, "WE HAVE YOUR COUSIN." I haven't seen those wild turkeys ever since.

This morning I woke up to Christmas lights decorating the whole outside of my house. I live alone. Thank you Christmas ninja, your gift is well appreciated.

I saw a church sign that said, "Jesus loves the Hell out of you." It made me smile.

While I was eating dinner, a ladybug landed on the big world map that I have hanging in my kitchen. For the next half hour, I watched the ladybug travel the world. I narrated his travels. Dinner well spent? I think so.

Today I had the greatest pie ever created. It was so good I instantly exclaimed, "OH MY GOD! I JUST HAD A PIEGASM!" causing my father to slam his fists down in anger and yell that I was too young to piegasm. I love my family.

I found out that in my uncle's office, instead of calling somthing lame, they say "That's so Twilight". I now have a new respect for my uncle.

More Outfits

Wake:
Michael Kors black cocktail dress
black and white houndstooth scarf
black and white houndstooth heels
black Kate Spade purse

Funeral:
Marciano black dress
Fioni cream and black lace satin bow pumps
black Kate Spade purse
Apt. 9 black cashmere zip up

After Party:
light wash Vintage Cavaricci jeans
red silk tank top
black cashmere zip up
black suede knee high tassled boots
black Murval bag

School:
vintage blue and white striped tank top
Old Navy blue pullover sweatshirt
Abercrombie skinny jeans
black suede knee high tassled boots
black Kate Spade bag
gold and diamond cross pendant necklace

Kenny's Party:
Delia's medium wash flare jeans
black Juicy Couture zip up
black Sweet Pea tank top
green vintage tank top
black Kate Spade bag
black suede tassled knee high boots
gold and diamond cross pendant necklace

Changed 3 times today....

Outfit 1:
Medium wash flare jeans from Delia's
Lacy dark blue spaghetti strap from Old Navy
Black Ralph Lauren Zip up
black vintage slip-ons

Outfit 2:
vintage knee length sweatpants
pull over Warde Indoor Track sweatshirt
K Swiss running sneakers

Outfit 3:
Dark green snakeskin patterned spaghetti strap tank top from Express
Delia's medium wash flare jeans
Dark blue V-neck pullover from Chinese Laundry
Silver bangles from Tiffany's
Land's End work boots